Update - 04/2013

You know what they say, when you can't sleep, blog. ;)

This is just a general update about moi hehe.

Well, I managed a full afternoon of college on Wednesday!!! :D First time of managing to attend any type of education in 3 years!! So it was an amazing achievement!! I am doing counselling skills level 2 course, and I go with my lovely friend Tori. :) The course I am doing is 10 weeks long, and it includes an hour long exam, a practical assessment and 1,500 word assignment. Its only once a week, for a whole afternoon. Only been one week so far, but really enjoying it.

I managed to go out for lunch today (19th April), and managed a little look round a few shops. I brought a lovely hair bow, and had a yummy jacket potato with cheese and red onion marmalade in it! Was delicious.

This weekend my fiance is going to be 18!! :D Can't believe I've been with him since he was 14!! Time goes so quickly. I love him very much.

I've become addicted to The Secret Life of the American Teenager. I love Amy & Ricky the best, but also love Adrien & Ben.

Music wise, I have a new love for 3 Days Grace, Rosi Golan and Olin and the Moon.

My health isn't good still, symptoms seem to keep getting worse but am keeping a smile upon my face and trying to continue having fun.

I went to the Children's hospital last week, and had to have an utlrasound of my ankle done, and more blood tests for my rheumatologist who is trying to figure out if I have lupus or whatever. Haha. All gets a bit confusing ;)

Thats about it, nothing much else happening in the life of me. :P

To any of you who are suffering, hope that things improve for you and that you all keep fighting.
And to my mummy, sister & fiance, daddy, brother, nanny and my best friends, I just want to say thanks for always being there for me. Means the world to me.

So thats all for now. Take care.

S 
xoxox.

Looking on the brightside of life! :)

Hey all - I know i've already done one blog today, but this one is about me :)

I have been achieving some great things recently, despite feeling worse. I have finally learnt to enjoy things and do things no matter how poorly I'm feeling because I'm going to be just as poorly if I'm at home in bed or if I am out having fun! And out having fun is much nicer! :)

So thinking back a couple weeks...
I managed to see Hansel and Gretel Witch Hunters at the cinema with my lovely Mummy! And we had Ben & Jerry's create your own core ice-creams! Which were super nice, and the movie was amazing! LOVED IT! <3
I've been out for tea a couple of times with my fiance which was really lovely... Each time I had my favourite - Chicken hot rocks with onion rings and chips! I also managed to go out for lunch with my fiance! Which was lovely.
I tried a big doughy pretzel for the first time ever! It was delicious and was covered in Nutella spread! NOM! :D
I managed to go for a little walk around New Look and Boots with my lovely Mumma.
I went to a party and even managed a little dance! :) This is a BIG acheivement.

I've had some lovely times recently. And don't get me wrong, I am feeling awful all the time, and I get payback from having fun, but I am making lots of lovely memories. You only live once, right?
I have days which are just spent in bed but not many, I am trying to stay strong and be brave! And live my life as much as I can!

Thanks for all the support from all my family, fiance and friends. (Especially from my mama - Love you mama!<3)

Just a quick blog to let my friends who are struggling exceptionally lots right now that I am thinking of them always and that I am always here for them! Some are in hospital :( Some of them are having massive flare-ups with their M.E! :( And some are just generally struggling! I hate that all of them are suffering so much. 

So. . . Rachel H, Jodie, Katie, Issy, Kate, Sophie, Alex, Clare, Rachel R, Charlotte, Amber, Kim, Clare, Alice, Adele, Rosie, Rosie, Toni, Ally, Anni, Beth, Louise, Giorgia, Kirstin, Dannie, Rose, Amber, Dani, Sophie, Becca, Rachel G, Mumma and my beautiful sister, Fifi. . . (And all of my other poorly friends!) I am sending you ALL massive hugs, and so much love and loads of magic fairy dust to help things improve.  I am always here for you all and always will be, never forget that! :) Stay strong, never give up, and don't ever stop smiling your beautiful smiles! Things will improve, this storm won't stay forever! It will pass, and the sun will be shining again, before you know it! :)

Love you all! You are all amazing and such inspirations to me! 

<3 

Positives! :)

I haven't posted for a while so thought I better post again! :)

I thought I'd focus this post on the positives I've acheived which I am proud of and happy about.

1) On Tuesday 5th March, I went to see Lawson in concert! They are amazing and Andy Brown was super hot! As hot in person as he is in the music videos! ;) Room 94 were amazing too! Loved it, was a great night. I went with my friend, Kim and met my friends, Amber and Holly there. Really throughly enjoyed myself!

2) I managed to wash my hair myself! I haven't been able to do this for MONTHS! So I was so pleased that I could do it. I was proud of myself.

3) I had a blood test and I watched my blood being taken, which I had never done before and it was the first time I had never cuddled in to my mum.

4) I went for a walk round the park which was super lovely, and I really enjoyed myself. Although, the ice-cream we had was rather discusting! :( haha!

I will post again soon!

Lots of love,

Sophs x

My goals for 2013

 

 

I wanted to list all the things I want to acheieve in 2013, and as I accomplish them I can tick them off my list and blog about them. I can see when I have made some accomplishments and can be proud of myself for acheiving my goals.

 

Here is my list :)

•  Pass my Maths GCSE
• See Lawson in concert
• Get married to my fiance, Luke in August
• Walk round Birmingham shopping centre
• Start going swimming
• Start going to church again
• Go back to band practise
• Start college in September
• Walk the mile for M.E in May
• Meet Jodie Osborne
• Meet Dannie Larkin
• Meet Alex Bliss
• Meet Sophie Lynch
• Start going for walks
• Loose weight and drop 3 dress sizes - Become a size 10!
• Get a tattoo
• Get my ears pierced again
• Go to a fun fair
• Stay up all night and have a horror movie marathon
• Go to a girlie sleepover
• Have an awesome hen night in July

 

I want to say thank-you to my Mummy for encouraging me to do this, and for always being there for me. And for being so supportive. I love you loads Mummy.

 

Fingers crossed that by the end of this year I can have crossed all this off of my list.

Anyway, thats it for todays blog. :) Byeeeeeeeeeee.

 

What M.E is really like...

Hey all you lovely lot :)

I wanted to write a blog to tell you all a bit of what M.E is like and what the consequences are of having fun. I am trying to raise awareness of how awful this long term illness is.

Last week, I had a lovely week, which was busy for me. Although 'normal' people, people who aren't poorly, would just think of it as an average week.
Because I did push myself to have a good time, a lot of people who don't understand M.E would think that I am getting better, or that I'm okay now. Although, that isn't true... I wish it was!!

I just about managed to do these things because if I didn't push myself to do nice, fun things every once and a while and make some happy memories, then life would be very boring!!


Although, once Saturday came and the week was over, all the effects of doing these things hit me hard! I had to spend most of the weekend and most of Monday in bed where I was feeling so poorly. Things that are usually difficult, like having a bath, were so much harder than before.
Today I am still really struggling and just seem to keep feeling worse everyday, it seems that I have relapsed with my M.E which totally sucks!! -.- This means that all my symptoms have gotten a lot worse, and that I have less energy than before (but I didn't have much then :P) which is highly frustrating!!
Things as simple as sitting up, holding my head up without support and talking are tiring me out and are hard.

But even though these are the consequences, I wouldn't of not done the things I did last week, I enjoyed myself and at the end of the day, that is all that matters. I am proud of myself for doing those things. And I am glad I did them.

I just wanted to give you all an insight of what M.E is like when you have 'overdone' it by doing too many high energy activities.

Thanks for reading, if anyone is reading my blogs that is ;) And hope that all of you who are watching Celebrity Big Brother are enjoying it! I love it! Always makes me laugh! Rylan or Claire to win!!! :D

Love to you all,

Sophs :) xxxx <3

Snowy, snowy, snow :)

Hey all :)

Has everyone been enjoying the snow?  :) I managed to get outside in the snow for half an hour yesterday, it was lovely! I had a snowfight with my Mum, Dad, sister, brother & fiance. It was lots of fun and I attempted building a snowman with my mum and sister which turned into a snow tower :P

Other people with M.E will know that it is hard to get out in the snow, so I was very proud of this achievement!

I spent most of today in bed due to payback from going out into the snow, but it was so worth it :) I loved being out in the snow, made a lovely memory!

Hope all my readers, if I have any ;), are as well as possible :)

Love and hugs to you all,

Sophs <3